I have been pondering on fathership for a long time. Considering my journey so far, I have decided to not have any kids. I am judged every time I express my position about the theme. However, as the adult man that I am, I have my reasons.
First, I do not see myself as responsible enough to be responsible for other life, it terrifies me a lot. I am a forty-year-old man and have just started living my life as I always wanted just 5 years ago. And what I wanted is not too much, I mean working hard as hell, saving some money, and travelling at least once a year. Many of you might consider what I have just mentioned as a lame excuse, but it is not for me.
Second, this reason is more philosophical, and it is connected to the rest of the world. The world is a cruel place to be in, it is full of injustice, prejudice, and inequality. The majority are dying because of the greed of a few. I have never been prone to fathership. Sometimes, I wonder if my denial could not be a fear to make the same mistakes as my father.
Even though my conditions to be a better father than my father was for me are huge, my musings on it are indubitably decided. What can I let to this world in an attempt to transform it into a better place? I do not know yet. A book? I did it, already. To plant a tree? Possible. A son? Not at all. I strongly believe that many contemporaries feel the same about fathership or mothership, however, this feeling remains in secret because of our Christian stifling hypocrisy. Amen.
